Rubies & Gold

Recently I went through a very painful break up.  I found a guy very different from any guy I’ve dated. Charismatic, positive, good-hearted, hansom- just a good guy. Fun to be around. I fell for him so quickly. We had some turbulence at the beginning of our relationship, but we got through it. We fell in love very quickly. We dated for 10 months.

I brought faith into his life. Light. He brought me a sense of refreshment and pushed me to be a better mom, friend, girlfriend, daughter. We tried our best to base our relationship around faith and God. It was great.

We had some issues talking about the next step in our relationship. Marriage became touchy-engagement-anything like that. But we got to a point where we started saving, looking at venues, budgeting-like really moving forward in life together. I wanted to wait until we were married to live together.

He told me things and I believed them. From anyone else’s lips I would brush it off and not trust the words. He would tell me he would never leave me. He told me he loved me. He told me he always would. He gave me a promise ring. He did everything great. He made me feel beautiful and confident. He pushed me towards good things.

 The man who left me made me think I was his future. He called me at times his wife. Or would say “I can’t wait to call you my wife”. He was romantic, flowers all the time. I had pictures in my place of us everywhere. I introduced him to my son and my whole family and he’d shake each hand smiling and saying, “I’m not going anywhere”. Yet, he’s gone.

Break ups hurt. And they can bring a sense of unworthiness, especially to a female. I have to remember he doesn’t add value to my person. He doesn’t make me less of God’s daughter. The plans God has for me are not less now that he is out of the picture. Same goes for you. We have to trust all things happen for a reason. We have to trust in God when he says he has great plans for us, bigger than we can hope for, dream or imagine. Yes. Even in these times of doubt, because we don’t have a changing God. He is true to his word. The reasons my ex left don’t entirely make sense to me, but that’s not why I’m sharing this. I’m sharing this because another precious daughter of God maybe reading this. And she might be going through something similar. And I just want you to know that God is in control. He knows how much healing and comfort and how much you need to feel loved right now. And he is there to give you all that. You might have been in an engagement and it was broken off. Or like me and really in love, and talking and moving towards marriage. And now you’re alone. But you’re not. God is there. Link with a friend who will speak life over you, another female who will come along side you in your hurt, and remind you how loved you are. You may be in pain right now, but God is a God who collects all your tears. You are so precious to him. He sees you as valuable. He adds value to you. God loves his daughters.

“She is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire can compare with her.”
-Proverbs 3:15

And the very hairs on your head are all numbered. So don’t be afraid; you are more valuable to God than a whole flock of sparrows
-Luke 12:7

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.”
Psalm 139:14

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